Still showing up…
even when my brain is feeling overcast. 😂

Just Be — done.
(Well...sort of 😣.)

Monday was full despite the low-energy start. I got into the studio, reviewed the mix for "Just Be," and by 12:12pm I had completed the bounce. That felt significant — weeks of piano takes, vocal fixes, and micro-managing my own voice, and suddenly it's a finished thing sitting in a folder…until Gianni listened in the car and decided we needed to revisit the mastering. Ugh. But ok, he cares, and that really, really matters.

Then I went live with the Week 3 recap livestream. Patreon never went live (whhhhyyyyyy????). I wrote an apology post, shared the YouTube link, and moved on — these things happen. Rehearsal in the afternoon, then out with Gianni. Yes. We went on an actual date. He knows me so well — he knew I needed to step away. We saw Disclosure Day at an actual theater. OMG!!!! I LOVED IT SOOOOO MUCH!!!! If you've seen it, I'd love to know your take. ☺️

A new song enters
the picture. A big one.

Wednesday's coaching call was pushed from 8am to 10am so I was able to get to the gym and shower before we met on Zoom. It ran a wee bit over an hour and I could tell we were both a little tired. 😂 I caught Mike up on the week: 41 songs entered into the sync portal and a total of 43 library placements — and nearing the finish line with "Just Be!" 🥳

We talked about next steps. We agreed that finishing my entire catalog entry and hopefully getting some actual placements would be a stronger way to introduce myself to sync agents and music supervisors — so the manual odyssey continues. As of the writing of this recap: 68 tracks entered, 57 library placements. More than halfway there!

And then the big moment: we decided I should push forward with recording my song "My Luck" with hopes of entering…wait for it…EUROVISION 2027!!!!!! Yep. This is one of the songs we identified as a focus song. Now it officially is.

After the call: wrote and completed the #FridayVibes reel, went straight into the studio to start production on "My Luck," squeezed in grocery shopping, a Department of Labor follow-up call, more portal entries, and a meditation to close the day. Just Wednesday things.

Not what I planned —
and that's okay.

Friday was my mother-in-law's 92nd birthday. I knew I'd see her for a birthday dinner, so I decided to tackle some admin stuff I had been ignoring — or if I'm honest, didn't have the energy or enthusiasm for.

I needed to get a grip on how many songs I actually had and how many were still not entered into the portal. After another frustrating session with AI, I wound up doing it the old-fashioned way: creating a spreadsheet, sorting, and manually checking off what was entered. Simple. Archaic. It worked. 🤣

Gianni was experiencing some bugs down in the studio. I figured out that for some unknown reason, Pro Tools had inserted an incorrect tempo into the "Just Be" session which messed up EVERYTHING. After a small tantrum and expelling all sorts of nonsense about the "Universe fighting me"…I calmed down, figured it out, and got him back on track.

I'm not proud that I lost my cool…but I'm sharing it because it's the truth. In hindsight I can detect the pattern: I didn't listen to my body, I didn't reset and recharge over the weekend, I didn't sleep well all week — and tada, self-doubt, mental meltdown, and poor-me victim consciousness ensues. I get it. I am trying to do better…says the woman writing this on Saturday morning. I need an actual assistant…or maybe just try and do a little less and create better quality? Yep. I'm a little wobbly. It's ok. I'm ok. Taking a deep breath…